urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182 Tazgirl2182 tazgirl2182@yahoo.com Tazgirl2182 2003-11-09T03:35:21Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:5278 2003-11-09T03:35:21Z 2003-11-09T03:35:21Z Well ithas been a very long time since i have written in my journal, since July 4th actually, but things are going pretty well i guess, staying busy wih school and work, and all my freinds that are having babies, it is exciting, maybe i will be able to keep updating my journal:) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:5108 2003-07-07T05:47:37Z 2003-07-07T05:47:37Z Well it is that time of year again, It was the anniversary of mine and Scott's accident, and i am usually not hte best person to be around on the fourth anymore ut it wasn't that bad this yeaqr i was a little moody at work, but then i lightened up as the day went on. My Grandmother wasn't too pleased with me going out though, but she wll get over it. I met up with Stephen, George, Okey and the Two Russians at Stephen's apartment, we had a drink then went ut to the beah to watch the fireworks, the were really pretty. The Russins said they expected or butloved them, they were very nice! We the made our way to walmart, i rode with Okey and w came up with a new invetion that is going to make us billions....lol It is called the friend finder or an FF....He had me laughing so hard it was great, as he tried to freeze me to death, i got ut of the car and my glasses steamed up, that is how cold he had it, then when we came out from wal-mart and opened the door all the cold air rushed out...it was too funny! Then it was back to the apartment for some drinks...we had so much alcohol, it looked like, all we ever did was drink, the fridge and counter were totally full. We drank and talked, it was really fun. And Stephen made a new shot that was really good, it was a peppermint patty! It as a fun night and i made to to anther fourth, so evryhting is goning prety well! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:4623 2003-07-07T04:59:46Z 2003-07-07T04:59:46Z Well it was a geat day, I had a lot of fun, I met up with Stephen and Greg and we went to eatat TGIF, there wee a tonof flie in there though it was kinda gross! The food wasn't bad this time though...just too many flies and dirty silverware....yuck anyways, then we heade up to colonial mll the weather was kinda nasty and rainey so we fixed it with some shopping.....after shoping it was beautiful outside. We headed back, and took Greg home and met up with George, Okey and Mr. Landers, We went to Outback fo dinner, it was pretty good food and a great Sour apple Margarita....Then we went to see Legally Blonde 2, It was a realy cute and funny movie. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:4508 2003-06-23T03:20:16Z 2003-06-23T03:20:16Z Well, I finally cleaned out my car, what a mess, the only problem is now it is all n my room and i ave to find a place for it all now...yuck! It was a nce night, had dinner with Stephen at Friday's first time we have been there together in awhile it was nice. And Oh my God Stephen ate a fridays mints, what is he thinking he doesn't like those things.....it was kinda weird. Awwwwwwww. And I found out that gary will be here July 13th or the 14th, hopefully it will all go well. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:3914 2003-05-28T02:15:39Z 2003-05-28T02:15:39Z Grandma was complining again today, but what else is new....notta thing! School starts again for me on monday oh yeah i am so excited can't you tell! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:3617 2003-05-21T15:21:03Z 2003-05-21T15:21:03Z GRRRRRRRR......I got a letter in the mail i have been sumoned for JURY DUTY and go figure it is the same day school starts, how aggravating! Oh well I think it will be interesting, but i can't do both and school is already paid for, so i am going to see if i can be rescheduled. Thins are very annoying her at my "home sweet home" I am still moving out whenever I can get money together. I got a phone callfrom Timthe other day and he says he is coming back to SC to see me, ummm I am really not sure about it. Not sure if i n to see him again, it has been 3 yrs, who knows. Well i guess i should get going, i have o d soe cleaning and get ready am going to see my famiy for a little while. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:3513 2003-05-11T04:34:07Z 2003-05-11T04:34:07Z What a busy week this has been, but it is ok, i went and visited with my family, and finally go to see the new baby she is sooo sweet. Heidi said he wants me to ove in with her and help her with the kids, awwwww, yeah right that isn't gonna happen,i don't think i would survive in the country! But it is always nice for a visit and to get away for awhile so....My sisters and i got together on a Mothe's Day present, and it went over very well, we made her cry. I found a tape of my sisters and i singing from like 10 years ago, oh my gos it was quite funny, but she loed it, an then we decided to add to it, she couldn't stop crying. Then my real mom called me tonight of course she is still harassing me about my brother, who knows what is going through her mind, but she needsto get her life striaght and i don't see that happening. so school starts again for me soon (summer) not looking forward to it, a 5:30 to 10:30 pm class, 5hrs oh my gosh i am gona die and it is like every night, shoot me now! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:3087 2003-04-30T03:25:07Z 2003-04-30T03:25:07Z Well, i take my last exam tomorrow, thank god i am soo glad. Then I get a month off, just to start summer classed, and then on to the Fall semester, it is a terrible cycle, LOL, but it is worht it. So things are going pretty good actually, no stress lately, hmmm I wonder why, oh oh i know.....the drama is over with! It is all good, I am happy, and can't wait until i get back on my feet, i will be moving soon! YAY!!! So I have been hanging out alot with Chris and Corbett they are so much fun to be around, it is freaking awesome! Summer is almost here, and it is time for some fun in the sun, swimming tanning, and playing with my kids! Oh and i can't forget hanging with my FRIENDS! Ok well i should go and study for my exam..... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:2943 2003-04-27T05:07:03Z 2003-04-27T05:07:03Z Oh My God, did i have an absolute great time lastnight! We all hung out at Fridays, with Matt as our waiter, and boy was josephine flirting with him, it was sooo funny. Give me your damn teeth (Orbit and Carrie)We all laughed so much, and then my hunny called me and we talked for awhile, he is soooo sweet! So we all ended back up at Carries house and stayed up untill 6 a.m. Oh boy what a night to remeber, i had a headach this morning, but it was all good! School ends on Wednesday and summer class begings in June. School the story of my life. But i will hopefully be somewhere with it all soon. Taking a vacation in between, i think we will see, me and my hunny are going to get together and hang it or whatever you know it will be fun! Anyways i am rambling, cuz i am tired, and it is nighty night time, so Goodnight to all! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:2562 2003-04-19T17:31:56Z 2003-04-19T17:31:56Z What an eventful week, WOW, i am 21, who knew I would make it this far! Well just for the hell of it i went into the store to buy something and wasn't carded, what the hell, i was pissed. Oh well, so i am having lots of fun, not stressing out about anything, nor am i fighting with anyone anymore! So things are going pretty descent. I am like dead tired i cuz i didn't get home until 4:30 this morning and didn't go to bed until like 6.....geeze Carrie and i are going to hang out with some cute guys tonight, it is gonna be fun. So despite what i thought, i had a wonderful birthday! ANYWAYS....got a phone call from someone special so, i am going to talk to him, hehe! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:2554 2003-04-13T05:02:09Z 2003-04-13T05:02:09Z I miss him so much, and i am not sure why it is hitting me all of a sudden, but it has, he turned 12 on the 12th although i am an hour late writing...oh well it is ok. I guess it is true you don't know what you have until it or they are gone. I am just glad he is safe and ok. But my mom keeps trying to put a guilt trip on me, she called crying saying how much she missed him, and had never been a part from him on his birthday. She acts like she cares, but if she did why did she do what she did, with out thinking of us especially him! It makes me so mad, how could someone have such little motherly instincts! I wish things were better with her but i know they will never be until she leaves JR, which will probablly never happen! But at least my brother sounds happy, i just pray that every thing works out! Well it was another drama filled day, with you know who, but you know what it is all done and over with because i will not put up with it anymore! I can't take all the stress, too bad such a long friendship will be messed up, but hey it wasn't my descion. Well chris, carrie, and i went out today, it was aboslutely wonderful, i haven't laughed so hard in a very long while. And we all love his new Boyfriend! He is a great guy. Can you taste the "Orbit"(inside joke) hehe! Well # 21 is coming up really soon, and despite everything i will have fun, Portia is supposed to come down and we are all going to hang out, somewhere, not sure where yet, but us girls and Chris and Orbit....a fun filled night full of laughs and humor! well it is bed time i have church in the morning! Goodnight! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:2274 2003-04-03T01:48:00Z 2003-04-03T01:48:00Z Well, i got a job and of course it has now come to an end, I wish I knew who kept talking shit, and I will eventually find out. It is true don't trust anyone any further than you can throw them. It is hard finding a job that seems somewhat decent and then being let down, but it will happen in time i am assuming. ALthough my grandmother has asked me to stop looking for a job and stay home and focus on my school work, nad just help her out around the house, and she said she would pay my car insurance, and get my other things caught up and give me money for gas, so i don't know. But not working and staying in the house all the time is driving me nuts, don't get me wrong i appreciate my grandmothers offer, she feels bad for me, and wants to help. I am just going to keep praying that something will come along and that it will be GOD's will for me. Well it is the 2nd and i have 13 more days to go, i am going to be old....lol the BIG 21! Exciting right, maybe...who knows i will probablly end up staying home all by myself....yuck... i guess we will see. Things will be a little better if people will just stop talking like the know everything, and trying to inform people of the things they think they know and understand. I have figured out that i can't really talk to anyone about things, so once again i will continue to keep things bottled up inside. It took me a long time to finally start opening up to some people, but now it will take even longer...but hey live and learn(then get luvs...lol) I am going to keep on trucking and hopefully things will start to fall back into place and i can make my mess up right. I am having to learn to be patient, which is my biggest weakness. Well there maybe someone i am interested in.... hmmm... thats all i will say about that one. hehe! Who knows what life has in store for anyone, it is all a big mystery, and i am trying to unfold mine too fast I think, it is time to sit back relax and stop taking things for granted. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:1913 2003-04-01T18:33:49Z 2003-04-01T18:33:49Z When will the drama stop, oh thats right never, not with the Queen of Drama!! I wish that Stephen would stop with his accusations, especially considering he is unwilling to back them up, or can't, which ever it may be. But hey why should I worry about it, because it isn't worth it, I have been so busy trying to get my shit taken care of for school, i feel like i am too too far behind.... grrrr... Well I got some upsetting news today, my Grandfather had a very bad heart attack, not sure how he is yet. We are waiting for word, all we know is that he was flown to Chattanooga hospital. I pray to GOD that he is ok. We may go up to be with him, not sure yet. Well other than that things are okay...Just get drama elimaniated from my life and things will be much smoother. I really want things to work out with Stephen and I, but he can't stop listening to other people long enough to talk to me and see whats up, so who knows, i guess i was fooling myself when i thought things could be straightened out. People just like to cause problems, and if thats what everyone wants to see and believe than so be it. I am working on getting my life back in line, and back on the right path, the path that GOD wants me to be on! Enough of this other stuff, i am not letting any of it bring me down, it isn't worth it. And if it was worth it than why don't others care....Oh well! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:1775 2003-03-27T04:09:44Z 2003-03-27T04:09:44Z Well, it was one of those days, I went to the police department today, and got my police record, oh the joy of things. Anywas I need a job, this really sux, I hate not working about as much as i hate working, if that makes any sense. But hopefully soon, and maybe all of this drama will come to an end , but some how i doubt it! I am so ready fopr this semester of school to be over with, although i am going to have to go to summer school!All because they don't offer some of my major courses during the regular school year, the are only offered during the summer, what a bummer. Oh well maybe it will help me get finished faster. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:1500 2003-03-22T03:43:26Z 2003-03-22T03:43:26Z Well, i went to the mall tonight, cuz i was bored, and needed to get out of the house. I met a friend there and we walked around for awhile talking and window shopping. And guess what, guess who i saw on the job posting board, hmmm i wonder CHICK-FIL-A.....that really pissed me off, because Paul told me he would call me when he started hiring again, and of course he hasn't what a jerk... but it is ok cuz i have come to the conclusion that i don't need that drama in my life as of right now. it is all good, i get through this without them! And now to top things off i have had to type this damn entry twice now because my computer keeps kicking me offline and i lose everything.....grrrr! But oh well i think i finally got it....well i am tired so i guess i will end for now....Love ya guys! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:1137 2003-03-21T22:40:19Z 2003-03-21T22:40:19Z I feel a little better now that i finally talked to Chris, i wasn't sure what was going on over there. So i have been trying to call him and istant message him but never anything, he wouldn't respond or call me back, and then i found out that stephen told him everything that happened, and then I knew why he wouldn't talk to me. It really hurt but hey i screwed up and can't say i blame anyone for being upset with me, but after our conversation today i am feeling a little better. I never realized how much i really missed him. I am glad things are okay with him, and i am glad stephen is talking to me agian. I can't wait until we can all get back together for old times sakes. I miss it all. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:884 2003-03-20T18:41:49Z 2003-03-20T18:41:49Z Things are so crazy right now at this point in my life, it has been like one huge nightmare that i can't wake up from. I keep thinking what am i to do or where am i supposed to turn now. I tell you one thing that I have realized is who i can trust and who i can't, and truthfully there aren't many people out there. I hate not knowing what is going to happen to me or with my life, i am totally in the dark, but it is my fault, and i can't change the past, as much as i would love to the world just doesn't work that way. I feel like it has been just one big battle field, and i am struggling to hold on, but it is terrifying especially not knowing who is on your side. It has been hard, Stephen and I have had some rough times, but I think this is the worst of them all. And to him i owe a big apology to, I am so sorry for the way i treated you. What i did isn't his fault, I knew better, and went against what was right. I think my family is just looking for someone else to blame other than me, although they know i have made the biggest mistake of my life. But they want to think that there was some other reason for it all. Everyone keeps asking me why, why did you do this? And although it isn't a good answer all i can say is i don't know why. It may sound stupid and crazy, but i feel like i am watching this happen to someone else like i am a bystander outside of myself. Strange i know, but i have no other explanation. It wasn't me at all i have never been that type of person, and i pray to GOD that i can get through this and start over on a fresh path. It has been very hard and stressful looking for a new job, who knew job hunting was such a pain...i guess i always had it easy when looking for a job, but not now! Well i had a job at Lowe's but it got thrown out the window just as fast as it was thrown in. People will talk, but what gives them the right to run their mouth. Oh well i will try to be the better person, and not talk about others, don't stoop to their levels! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:647 2003-03-20T18:06:25Z 2003-03-20T18:06:25Z I am hoping this will work, once I know it works i will begin to write more stuff... But you know how i am with computers and these things that go along with it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tazgirl2182:462 2003-03-20T00:16:58Z 2003-06-23T03:11:23Z Just testing this thing out to see if I actually got it to work, you know how i am with computers!!!